October 19, 2004

BDSM Lifestyle Reading Recommendations


Erotic Surrender: The Sensual Joys of Female Submission
by Claudia Varrin
As the name suggests, this book is an introduction to submission from a female perspective. It's an excellent beginner guide to women who believe they may be submissive, and offers advice and insight into healthy submission. Warmly written, it's probably most useful to newcomers to D/s, and is less likely to be useful to anyone already in a D/s relationship.


Learning the Ropes: A Basic Guide to Safe and Fun S/m Lovemaking
by Race Bannon
A beginner's introduction to BDSM that debunks many of the myths surrounding S&M play and offers examples of scenarios and negotiation techniques. Also includes information on how to create an inexpensive toy collection, safety, finding partners, and a recommended reading list.


S&M: Studies in Dominance & Submission
by Thomas S. Weinberg
A series of essays written in the style of an academic text, this book supports the sociological idea that sadomasochism is not a pathology or deviant behavior, but a healthy sexual lifestyle of shared fantasies.


Jay Wiseman's Erotic Bondage Handbook
by Jay Wiseman.
An excellent how-to manual on all aspects of erotic bondage and bondage play. Published by Greenery Press


Safe, Sane, Consensual... And Fun
by John Warren
Fifteen hot scenarios for bondage, spanking, roleplay and power exchange. This updated edition of mild-to-wild sex scenes is entry-level guide for curious couples. Published by Greenery Press


SM 101 by Jay Wiseman.
This is THE definitive introduction to BDSM; includes a good bit about the psychology of power exchange, why people want to do this kind of thing; ideas for BDSM play; safety tips; etc. Published by Greenery Press

October 13, 2004

Pain and Longing


I lick the bruises you left behind-- your claim over me. I wear them like a badge, enticed by the shame that marks me. I feel an aching in my sex, a craving on my tongue that is residual of our last moments. Pain and longing are indistinguishable, and I feel compelled to stay though my mind says to run away.

But of course, I cannot go, wrists bound, body curled on the cold cement at the foot of your bed. I see your teethmarks on my thigh turning purple and I wish one hand was free so I could trace it, delicious, delicate, tender. I throb and long to ride your magic wand, the torturously sweet engourging of the aching well inside me.

I hear your footsteps outside the room, just beyond the locked door, and I shiver at the unknowing, at the promise of completion. The key in the lock, my nipple against cold metal, I feel my life pulse in my clit. You open a locked trunk with a jangle of keys and submit for my pleasure the magic wand, silver, glittering in the halflight, like a knight's weapon, a lady's torture. My eyes run the length of your stature, before you bind them closed.

The words you whisper in my ear are meant to shame, but I find them intoxicating, and my pulse quickens. Still cuffed, you position me on all fours on the bed, ass lifted high for your inspection, for your leather glove. Skin rose-blushed by your attentions, bloodrushed by your affectionate stinging, I feel the well overflowing.

The first thrust is exquisite pain that makes me cry out, makes my legs tremble as the beast fills me, slides into the pink, into the dark, into my longing. You fuck me deeply, one hand at my throat and I struggle to breath as I sink into the pain, swim in it like a nightmare in slow motion. I see your shadow on the wall before me, stretched upward like a wolf announcing it's presense in the light of a full moon, and you fuck me. You lift me higher, casting the spell. The pain you deliver and the unbearable ecstasy counter each other. Time stops, shattering air and atom, to fall like confetti, a glittering cacophony that stops my heart.




October 4, 2004


My world, the darkness, incarnate
I hid within and feared my fate
Alone.

Detached
My spirit I did chain
Seeking refuge from desires pain
I built the walls around my soul

I must guard my heart
The depth of my passions
I never told
My lusts a curse

I tried to disguise
Into the shadows
I sought to hide
Alone, I thought, I would be

Yet sensing a presence
in the darkness with me
Whispered words within my head

Resurrecting passions
I thought forever dead
Your silent command,

my heart obeyed
Break down the walls,
I beg you,
please show me the way
I'll kneel before you,

content in worship
My submission complete
within your Dominance